“Twenty-somethings are worried”

“Twenty-somethings are worried. They’re anxious. They’re worried about whether life is going to work out for them. Whether it’s going to work out as well as they thought it would” – Meg Jay

I heard this on my way to church this Sunday morning on NPR. It was an interview with author/clinical psychologist, Meg Jay, about her book, The Defining Decade: Why Your Twenties Matter — And How to Make the Most of Them Now. You can read the rest of the article here.

The quote made me stop and think. I AM WORRIED!!!

I am worried that we aren’t saving enough for retirement. Especially when someone gets out that scary calculator that shows you how much a 21-year-old could save by the time they’re 60, and how much I’ve lost in just 4 short years.

I am worried that I don’t really quite know what I want to do with my life. I got my degree in psychology and I want to go back to school some day, but that’s a 5-7 commitment to go into research, not to mention a lot of money that will hurt the savings I don’t have. (See the point above to freak out again about finances). But I also love what I’m doing in the non-profit industry and have recently thought about a master’s in Non-Profit Management. And if I go back to school, when am I having kids?

Don’t get me started on how I am worried about when I need to have kids! Yes, I am only 25, but Carl is 31, I want three kids, with 2 years apart, so you start doing some math. Genetics aren’t in my favor, adoption can take 2-3 years for one child… But how do you know when you’re ready? And how do I know that I won’t end up with a crazy rebellious teenager just like me?

Should I go back to school, should I work to save, should I just have kids now? Should we never have kids and travel the world?

Of COURSE I am WORRIED! But the wonderful news is, after each spiral panic, I take a breath, say a prayer, and ask God to lead me. That’s it. If Carl and I had a baby now, we would be fine and ecstatic. If I never go back to school, it will be because I am doing something better, not because I missed my window. If we don’t end up with millions in savings that’s because we lived life and gave it away. I also know there will be hard days, and panic days ahead, but I know that I’m following a perfect plan.

If I eat flowers will my allergies go away?

I ate local honey all year. I have lived in Georgia my whole life. I never go outside. So why have my eyes been so itchy and watery for the past few days that I can’t even wear make-up?

My eyes itch. My nose runs. I have headaches. Do you know how frustrating a half sneeze is?!?!!

I think Mother Nature heard that I don’t like her and she is striking back.

I have tried eye drops, but I miss A LOT and so I just have fake tears all over my face. Then my eyes itch more. People keep asking me if I’ve been crying.

No, I do not want to use a teapot to pour into nose. I really don’t see how that is at all a good idea. I had plenty of water go up my nose as a kid and I do not want to recreate that sensation on purpose.

I also am in denial that I have allergies. I think that if I ignore it long enough I won’t have them, therefore I don’t need to take medication. Because if I bought it, that would be surrendering! I will not surrender to daisies!

I may be getting a little delirious.

Stupid spring. It’s not even warm. Where are the April showers! I’m packing up and moving to the desert. There’s like one plant. I think it’ll be great.

Hilton Head Mission Trip

These are all pictures from the mission trip that I led! First time ever! It was definitely intimidating, but the group was awesome! Carl led worship for the group and of course they thought he was the bomb! (People still say that don’t they?) He had his backpack and iPod watch and blended in just fine. I, on the other hand, was asking if my CD collection was still relevant. I mean, Dashboard Confessional is still #1 in my book. We had an amazing time all week, doing beach ministry, prayer walks, some heavy duty landscaping, among other things.